"I feel my Mortality Surround me..."
I was going through my record of This American Life Podcasts, listening to an episode named Home Alone about what happens to folks when they die alone and while this isn't me at all, I felt a sadess come on me. Some of these folks were married, had children, but in some cases, outlived them all! In others the children had become estranged and no one was around for them when they died. When you are Young, noone thinks about your own demise- it's the furthest thing from your mind. When you get to middle age however, you realize one day that at least half your life is behind you and that your time to come is not nearly as large as the time you've already spent alive.
NO, I'm not having a Midlife Crisis. I have a job that occasionally Challenges me, a better-than-average living situation, folks who Love and Care for me & I, them. It just comes as a realization that for some, this is what they have ahead of them and it is the Last thing they would have expected. As part of the Baby Boom, I can expect even more aweful things happing to us as a group as the majority of us goes into retirement (those of us that can) Somehow, my Jaundiced Eye thinks that there will be a lot of Predators out there, trying to make a living on the misery of others, or exploiting for Profit. I have noticed stories about it and I'm sure it will be on the Rise as the population gets Older.